family

family is something no one can live without. no one. and for those who don't have families i feel sorry for you because they are great. mine sure is great. we have our ups and downs. fight and argue. laugh and hug. its the best.

              over the past year i've done some pretty crazy things that i severely regret. yes, everyone has these moments and its great to talk to friends about it (the right friends of course), but sometimes you need a little family to share these moments with you. to uplift you, and be with you every step of the way. i feel that i have let my parents down a lot. especially being the oldest of 9 total kids on both sides of my family. and who do they look up to? me. i'm not trying to feel sorry for myself nor make up excuses for the way i am. but i will say it is definitely hard to be this great older sister when there are so many eyes watching.

              recently ive done something that will change my life forever. its been very hard and emotional to decide what to do. its especially hard when 10 different people are giving you advice on 10 different things. and most people know that i just listen. doesn't mean i'll do what you say or want me to do, but i'll be glad to listen :) whichever way i do decide will put a lot of responsibility on my shoulders, but its good to know i have my family supporting me. its hard to grow up in a 5 month frame. but something that can be done. so no matter what our trials are just make sure to talk to your family members, because they love you and really do care for you. and god also loves us all.